Morgan's Story

     I received an email from a girl named Morgan and she has read this blog and was inspired by the other survivors sharing their stories! Morgan thank you for being brave and breaking your silence on my blog. I am truly honored and humbled to be able to share this for you. I know that your strength and boldness in sharing will truly inspire others to come out and break their silence as well! 


Here is Morgan's story written by her. 

     I was molested by my father when I was 13, then again when I was 19. I don't know if it is considered molestation at 19, either way he assaulted me. When I was 13 he would wrestle with me and once I was pinned down he tickled me. I didn't like the way he touched me. I thought he was a perv, so I avoided him.       
                
     He started patting me on the butt as I walked by, sometimes even keeping his hand there until I complained. Then one time I was in the kitchen. I looked into the living room and my father was starring at me as he sat in the dark. I turned the light on, there he was masturbating while watching me. I totally freaked out, called my mom, who put a stop to it. He didn't touch me again till I was 19.

     I was engaged to my boyfriend right out of high school. He was my only love, the only one I ever dated. Since we were so young with little money we were about to move into a crappy looking duplex once we were married. My father being a carpenter, helped fix things up that the landlord had no intention on doing. I felt uneasy being around my father but everything that happened long ago was history I thought. I moved on, he seemed to have moved on.

     I was downstairs painting when he came down, shutting the door at the top of the stairs. All of a sudden his hand was on my butt. I let it happen, hoping he just didn't know or something. I was so naive, as he took the roller from my hands. I began to cry, knowing full well what his attentions were. "Your even more beautiful when you cry," he said to me. "I have been waiting for this moment for a long time," He led me to the couch and raped me. I lost my father that day!

      My father was arrested and sentenced to prison. It was rough to go through, but he needed to be punished for what he did.  He only got 7 years which was strange to us, as his lawyer argued it was consensual. If being frightened for my life, knowing full well my father was going to get what he wanted was consensual, then it is true.  Unbelievable!!!  I found myself hating that lawyer more than my father with the questions he gave me, the lies he told, and the disrespect he showed for my family. It was just awful, all the way through.

    I believe with all my heart that it  is so rewarding to tell, go to the police, and prosecute, even if it was my own father. Don't let one get away with such a terrible crime, even if it is just 7 years, it will follow him the rest of his life. 
  

   Morgan you are a true inspiration and I can't imagine how hard it was for you to report this and go through the insults by his lawyer. Not only will this follow him for the rest of his life but he will have to answer to God as well.  Thank you for your bravery and relaying the message to report abuse no matter what, no matter who it is!!! I know that God was with you every step of the way giving you His strength to get you through that awful time.  Morgan when I think of you I think of Psalm 23 and how God has guided you and is protecting you. 

1The LORD is my shepherd;
I have all that I need.
2He lets me rest in green meadows;
he leads me beside peaceful streams.
3He renews my strength.
He guides me along right paths,
bringing honor to his name.
4Even when I walk
through the darkest valley,a
I will not be afraid,
for you are close beside me.
Your rod and your staff
protect and comfort me.
5You prepare a feast for me
in the presence of my enemies.
You honor me by anointing my head with oil.
My cup overflows with blessings.
6Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me
all the days of my life,
and I will live in the house of the LORD
forever

 Readers and survivors please comment and send words of encouragement to Morgan. If you would like to send her an email please email me at 4hopeandhealing@gmail.com and put in the subject line "Please Forward to Morgan" and I will be happy to send it to her. Any other survivors out there who would like to share your story please email me at 4hopeandhealing@gmail.com. This blog is a safe place and there has been a supportive and encouraging community that reads this blog. So join us in breaking your silence!! 

Comments

  1. Morgan Here is a comment from Harmony via Twitter,
    "Congratulations to Morgan for finding the strength to come forward to give a voice to matter that is often silenced!"

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  2. Morgan,

    Sharing your story took a lot of courage. What it's going to do is let someone else know that being brave and reporting it like you did is the right thing to do. Any type of sexual abuse to either gender should be reported and have it dealt with. Thank you for sharing.

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  3. nice posting.. thanks for sharing.

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  4. Thank you so much for sharing this with us Lisa, and for the scripture. It's one of my faves.
    Morgan you are so brave I hope I can be just as brave as you because tomorrow I am going to report my father to. I am so so so sorry these things happened to you. I'll keep your story safe in my heart, pulling it out when I wish to see what true strength looks like. Thank you for your courage, and for speaking out. When one of us speaks out it echos for the world to hear, imagine the kind of noise we could make if we all broke the bonds that bind our lips shut. I've broken mine and left them to rust in that bed where I left my childhood.

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